Take me as I am or leave me as I was. A statement that is often
uttered in various ways throughout the city and the world at
large, the context in which it's used can be viewed as very
proud, or very stupid. A statement of self confidence and even
arrogance, this statement and its various incarnations make it
quite clear: I'm perfect and don't mess with it. When used by
those that actually ARE on the top of their game, it can be the
perfect shot in a verbal debate or a very well executed
dismissal.
However, it is far too common for the vampires in this city to
use this statement as an ineffective excuse for their
shortcomings. I know several vampires personally that have that
Achilles. They can hum along and be rather productive or show
others that they have potential, and then something occurs and
before you know it, the Achilles has taken hold, and the
vampire loses everything.
Does said vampire look at the situation and say, "Wow, when I did
THAT, that set forth a series of events that led to my personal
destruction?" Of course not. They say, "I was THIS when you
met me, and you KNEW this coming in. This isn't MY fault, it's
YOURS." Well, no, it isn't and allow me to explain.
If you are stuck in a cycle where every few months something
occurs and you end up losing everything over and over, there is
only one common denominator...you. Believe it or not, you are
the problem. This would be a wise thing to recognize, because
the only one in the city that will accept the "this is how I
was before you met me" excuse is yourself. When you take it a
step further and declare that you "see" the truth, yet you're
the only one who has the "balls" to say anything, allow me to
laugh a bit before reminding you that if you're the ONLY one
in the city with a particular opinion, then it probably sucks.
It is not the job of the city to adjust to you. Because you're
an immature putz of a vampire who feels they do not need
self-improvement, it doesn't mean that everyone else needs to
bend over backwards to accomodate your rather psychotic ideals.
So, stand up and shout about how you have it all down with your
lack of clan, lack of family, lack of spouse, lack of home, and
lack of friends. Sit back in your cardboard box and declare that
you know it all and that members of the city that have clans,
family, spouses, homes, and friends are really the ones that
don't know what they're doing. Continue to declare this over and
over. It won't make anyone believe you, but it'll help you fill
that paper cup up with quarters quicker.
Does the moon follow you when you walk? About as much as the
sky is green, the grass is pink, and you're a success in this city.
Like always, I tell the truth so you don't have to...not like you
planned on it, anyway.
~S~
